Monday, March 2, 2015

A story of a prodigal daughter

I loooooove the story of the parable of the prodigal son, because in so many ways it is my story. While I was a long way off, my God and Father saw me and my distress. He ran to me; He embraced me and kissed me, while I was still my filthy, smelly self. And while I made excuses for everything that was wrong with me, the mistakes I had made, the wrong paths I had taken, I have heard Him speak over my words as he announced a feast in celebration of my coming back home. While I asked to be made His slave, I have instead heard his music, his singing, his dancing and celebrating over me. While I spoke of my sins against Him, I have instead watched Him laugh in joy and put a robe on  my shoulders and a ring over my fingers. While I hesitated to walk into the house that was once my home, I have smelled the aroma of a fattened calf and all the delicious food being prepared in my honor! And it was quite a sight! I shall never forget the great love that God lavished upon me that day - in spite of my rebellion He called me his child (1 Jn 3:1)! Glory to God! Hallelujah! Oh, if only you knew the darkness, the sorrow, the loneliness, the condemnation, the pain, the sheer agony, the hatred of existence, the despondency, the giving up, and finally the resolve on my part, not to fight the darkness, but to live in with my pain day after day having believed that the rest of my life would be this way. If only you knew my pain. I had believed that God was punishing me, that His forgiveness was big, but just not big enough for my sins. If only you knew my distress. But may be you do know it, though I hope it's history for you. 
I tell you, I can still remember that cloudy day when I wept on floor and told God that even though I thought I could go on living like this, with an everlasting guilt looming over my life, which I deeply believed to be the punishment of God over me for my sins, I couldn't. I literally could not go on living like this but bear with me just a few moments - there is a twist in the story! Like I was saying, I needed him to take the darkness away because, I thought I could bear it but I realized I couldn't. How do you live hating yourself everyday and pretending to everyone around about the fact that you are DYING everyday?! My wounds were invisible to everyone. It even felt like they were invisible to God, but that day I cried out so honestly, so deeply, with such desperation and a need of deliverance. I don't remember all that I said - only that I cried out to God with all of my heart with great humility. The burden was really, really, really, really heavy and my soul just had all about it could carry. And that day as I laid myself bare before God, the presence of my Father filled the room. Though had started running to me the moment I had made my prayers for relief, that day, that day right there, in that moment in room, that was the embrace. That day was the freedom from oppression. That day was healing from my infirmities. That day was the day where Christ and I exchanged yokes. That day was day when the dark clouds that covered the skies did nothing to stop the light of the Son of God from shining through the clouds of my life. That day was the day when I learned that desperation and humility create room for God to bring healing. I felt His presence all around me, as strong and bold as the darkness that was terrorizing me everyday. I felt His touch! And I literally mean it when I say I felt His touch! He touched me!
Do you know, in so many ways it was like the woman who touched the hem of Jesus garment after trying everything else, she tried God and power went out and healed her. That's what happened to me, except, He's the one who touched me. I stayed there for some time and then I got up from the floor, and with the lingering presence of the hand of God, I went about my day . I went to bed that night and when I woke up the next morning, it was a different Erome. Don't ask me to explain how it happened. All I know is, there was no depression, no darkness, no pain, no hatred of my self, no bitterness, no vilifying of God - just praises that I didn't have to live in misery for the rest of my life, praise that God was a true and living God and that He had heard my prayers! There was a God in heaven that hears me! God had lifted up my head up and I was now living in joy! He had lifted me from the miry pit and sat me on the Rock! He had poured oil over my head right in front of the enemy! I just couldn't believe that number of scriptures and promises of God that had come true in my life! That's way I love the parable of the prodigal son, because it is also my story. It can be your story if it is not already. You don't have to live by squandering your life. Believe me, the people who help you squander it will also be the ones who will let you feed on the pods of pigs and give you nothing, though they were ready to use up your everything! But God! Oh but with my God my friend - you don't have to live in agony or depression or pain for the rest of your life, You are NOT meant to live in such darkness as a Christian. You are made for joy, for freedom, for hope for gladness (Phil 4:4-7). The Word says that Jesus went about doing good and delivering those that were under the power of Satan (Acts 10:38) and he wants to rescue and deliver you and anyone that would tell you otherwise is an agent of evil.
It does not matter that your chains feel strong, only that one stronger than those chains has seen your pain, and as you make your way back home, He is already running toward you, to deliver you, and though His deliverance feels like it's not coming at all, it will come! God is not slack in fulfilling His promises. He already says that He has come out of His sanctuary to rescue you. "He will respond to the prayer of the destitute. He will not despise their plea. Let this be written for a future generation (that's YOU!!), that a people not yet created (that's YOU!!) might praise the Lord: The Lord looked down from His sanctuary on high, from heaven He viewed earth, to hear the groans of the prisoners and release those condemned to death" Ps. 102: 17-20. If that doesn't sum it up, I don't know what else does. Your pain is clear to you now, but God designed and destined your deliverance before you were even born. So I tell you, just wait on the Lord and take heart. You WILL come to know His embrace. Those are not mere words. They are fact. They are the very promise from God.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Thinking on God after a sweet hour of prayer

Thank you Jesus for this sweet time. Thank you for this hour of peace. Thank you for these moments of rest. Thank you for your goodness and grace. Your kindness is not motivated by my goodness. Your endless giving is not because I can pay you back. Your mercy is stronger than any of my sins and newer than any new wrong turns I have taken. Your light know no bounds. It shines into the most hidden places and darkest corners of my life. Your wisdom is limitless and far beyond my understanding. Your judgement is so deep, unflawed and unfathomable. And Oh! Your love! Your love is like a mighty mountain - immovable, unshakable, strong. I could search it up and down or sideways and across and each time, there are fewer words available to me to describe its magnificence. Each time more tears spill out, and each time the amazement I feel gets deeper. It not only covers my failures, it makes up for them and does much more in and through a wretched person like me - much more than could ever be imagined our understood. You are a good God. You are good all the time and all the time you are, O, so good!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

He Shed His Blood - Addisu Werku

"I am person for whom God has done much. But of all the things that He has done for me, the big thing that captivates my life is His love, eternal life. People ask me "why do your songs always go to the cross?" But what other story do we have? But what other story do we have? To get things? You can get things outside of the cross. You can find health outside of the cross. There are many who are better than us and have more than we do. There are many who are not Christians that can say they have more. But we have been given eternal life! Praise God! I don't follow God for a hamburger or a house or money, but for eternal life! Praise God! That's what has captivated me. A few months after I received the Lord, since I was very hard-headed, I started asking "why do I follow the Lord?" So I fasted and prayed about it. I was young and wanted to certain of the answer, because I saw the many places I could be. While I was fasting and praying God took me to one place. When the Lord Jesus Christ died, there were people around. There were. His mother and disciples were there. So were his enemies. And I placed my self there at that scene. What would I do knowing He died for me on that cross? What would I say? Me beneath the cross as He died and I was saved, is a scene that is engraved in my life forever. Now that scene has been engraved on my heart and in my life like a painting. So now when I think of the Lord and I want to sing, that is all I see because it is the reason I have eternal life. Praise the Lord! He can save people like us. And if you ask me why I sing? Like David I say I will praise the Lord all of my life with all of my praises. Even with a shaky voice, I'll praise Him with what He's given me. The beauty of a voice is a gift of God but God looks at the heart and our life. If the fruit of our life is not good what is the point? That is why I sing what I have come to learn from my life. And I have learned that Jesus is truly Lord and truth and a friend to us. He has carried us and brought us this far because of His mighty strength. Praise the Lord! Let us follow Him to the end. We won't lack anything and even if we do, it's nothing as long as we have Him. So I won't sing about what I have and I don't have. He has blessed me and that is all good. But I want to sing about Jesus for we have no story but the story we have in Christ." Singer Addisu Werku ( 

Below is an English translation of a song written by this Ethiopian Christian brother. I have been listening to Ethiopian songs and translating them to English because they're messages are so amazing. I hope you find comfort in this just as I did :-).

So far had my soul steered
From the way of the Lord
I had greatly transgressed
All the laws of my God
But my savior on high
Gave me mercy and love
He Sent His only Son to save me

He shed His blood and He rescued me
He shed His blood and He rescued me
Worthless though I maybe
With no knowledge of Him
Yet He sent His own Son to save me

By the time He arrived
There was no hope in me
But He spoke to my soul
Saying He’d set me free
Then He lifted me up
Clothing me with glory
He sent His only to Son to save me

Ever since He chose me
Joy fills all of my heart
Now when heavy winds blow
In him I always hide
If I lean on His arm
There’s no need to fear harm
For He sent His own Son to save me

Such great heavenly joy
And peace are given me
That’s why all of my life
Lord I pour out for thee
Won’t you now hold my hand
And with you make me stand
For you came down to earth and saved me  

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

A Talk with my Lord.

Many are the mountains that rise in my journey
When I desire a life that will be for your glory
But my reason and fears are fighting so strongly
Yet I am seized by your words, "you must follow me."

Frustrating your grace is not my desire
I want only to fan the Spirit’s holy fire
So before I snuff out the passion you’ve kindled
Come live in me, and work here unhindered.

All that is lazy, unholy and rotten
In me and all others who are heavy laden
Come now and destroy with your powerful might
And make us a people esteemed in your sight.

I have seen the reward of those who went before
Who discarded the world so they may know you more
Who were considered refuse in the eyes of the world
but were so very precious in the eyes of their God.

Blessed are they for they paid the whole cost 
They followed you daily, they carried their cross
Since the Gospel is worthy of such Sacrifice
May my eyes be opened and I too pay the price.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

God Is Our All in All

What do you need from God today? He is everything. He's our all in all. 
El Elyon: Most High God 
El Shaddai: The Destroyer God, The Overpowering God, The God of Fertility, The Guardian of the doors of the House of Israel.
El'Olam: Everlasting God 
El'Hai: Living God 
El'Roi: God my Shepherd
El Gibbor: God of strength
Gabriel: The strength of God
Michael: Who is like God
Raphael: God's Medicine
Ariel: God's Lion
Daniel: God's judgement
Israel: The one who has struggled with God
Immanuel: God with us
Ishmael: God who hears/listens
El Roi: The God who sees
El ElyonL The Supreme Judge
Zokef kefufim -"Straightener of the Bent"
Malbish Arumim -"Clother of the Naked"
YHWH-Tsidkenu—"The LORD Our Righteousness"
HaRachaman-"The Merciful One"
Uri Gol— "The New LORD for a New Era"
YHWH-Niss"i (Adonai-Nissi)—"The LORD Our Banner"
YHWH-Shalom—"The LORD Our Peace"

He is all this and more, much more! 

Monday, May 20, 2013

Perseverance - The Hardest Call for Christians

Persevere: continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no indication of success; persist.

Perseverance is a word that is a constant theme throughout most of Jesus sermons and Paul's letters in the New Testament. The parable of the sower, where only one of the seeds grows to produce many fruits while the others die, the parable of the ten virgins, where only five were ready for the bridegroom, and the parable of the wheat and tares, where the wheat have to grow with the weeds until the harvest, are just a few of the examples. Ultimately, of course, we have the example of Christ himself, who perseveres on with his mission through the difficulty of his death and resurrection. Though the cup was bitter, "your will be done" was his prayer and his life was poured out as an offering for our sake, that we might live. We also have the martyrs and many in the "cloud of witnesses" as our examples. They held on to Christ till their very last breath. Rev 12:11 says of them, "they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death." Synonyms and phrases relating to perseverance also permeate the Old Testament. Deuteronomy is the best example of this theme of perseverance in the Old Testament. Especially in the beginning of the book where Moses summarizes the experiences of the Israelites prior to the laws and ordinances that he will lay out for them as given by God, he reiterates the vitality and the importance of them holding onto these very laws and statutes. If you hold on it will go well with you, he says. If you refuse to obey God and cast aside what he asks of you, and eventually turn your own way then it will not go well with you. The land will spit you out, he says. In Deut 4:3, Moses reminds the Israelites of an episode where this principle was demonstrated by talking about an event at Baal Peor. He says, "You saw with your own eyes what the Lord did in Baal Peor. The Lord destroyed from among you everyone who followed the Baal of Peor. But all of you who  held fast to the Lord your God are still alive today." The phrase "held fast to the Lord your God" really means those of you who persevered. And clearly, it doesn't turn out so great for those who rebel against Him. Boy, Jesus knew what he was talking about when he said, "Fear him who can destroy your body and your soul." But for those of us who are in Christ, there is no fear, only love, faith, hope and peace.

Going to back to perseverance though, it is so important. Believing in Christ is just the beginning. You have your whole life ahead of you to be molded, shaped, cleansed, chiseled, refined in fire, made pure and ready of the coming of the King. He wants to use you, to turn this world upside down. He is yet to fill you with compassion and agony for the sake of this world so that you know what he feels when he sees this planet in pain. He wants you to work with him to bring hope. He is yet to test you to see what is in your heart so that you can be a better person, a light and example in all you do, just like him. He is yet to allow you to go through to persecution and pain so that you can learn to treasure him above everything. He is yet to teach you how to resist temptation and the devil so that you may experience what it means to be victorious over evil. He is yet to equip you with the awesome knowledge that no weapon formed against you shall prosper, but that all weapons will be used to make you a better soldier. He is yet to help you understand that you have nothing to fear in Christ. These are wonderful lessons that take a lifetime to learn. But the whole the point is Christ. He is the focus of our journey. He is the beginning and the end. Our entire life as Christians, the Spirit is trying to help us understand this.

But it's hard lecture to sit through and  the tests can get pretty difficult. It's hard to keep keeping on. So instead of holding on till it starts to make sense, we turn to a gospel that is not founded on Christ. We become social Christians that help the world fight injustice because we think that solving the world's physical problems is what God really wants from us. I mean, isn't that what it means to be a light? We become legalistic Christians because carrying out instructions is believe it or not, actually easier, by a long shot, than the abstract, all-requiring commandment to "love the Lord with all your heart, with you all your soul, with all your mind, with all your strength." We become un-judgemental Christians who think acceptance is all that matters because having a standard to aspire to, well that's old fashioned and "religious". To each his or her own right? We become discussion and doubt-inclined Christians because we think that certainty takes away from that "still searching and going through the Christian journey" look that we all want to have.

Well guess what? The worlds problem is much bigger than the physical issues of sex trafficking and poverty (though it's good that we're fighting against them). God is not interested in how well you can carry out instructions because you can't carry them out well enough and standards are very important as demonstrated by Christ's death. Not persevering is not an option in Christianity. As it is written in Heb. 10:32-39, "Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured a great conflict full of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence. It will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For, "In just a little while, he who is coming will come and will not delay." And, "But my righteous one will be by faith. And I take no pleasure in the one who shrinks back. But we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed by to those who believe and are saved." It's easy at the beginning but it gets tough toward the end. Hang in there. When you fall, remember he carries you. Get up. You are saved in Him. Keep going. Keep holding on. The reward will be so great that just "one glimpse of him in glory will the toils of life repay." I got chills writing the previous sentence :-).
Chris Rice: Come to Jesus

Monday, April 22, 2013

The Stereotype in Acts

Christians today, including myself, have often remarked that there seems to be less power and faith in this generation than there was in the past, and "past" has often referred to the time of the apostles as recorded in the book of Acts. This book and the time it describes is truly amazing. It was a marvelous time for the Church. People being healed, miracles everywhere, the dead raised to life and the Gospel of Jesus reaching the vast Roman empire at a staggering pace as Christians took the message out with them wherever they went. But we often miss some of the other events that happened in Acts that may not be as comforting for us today. For instance, in this same time period, Christians were persecuted and hunted mercilessly, James was beheaded, Peter was crucified upside down, Paul was stoned and left for dead at some point in his journey, sent to prison countless times, and finally beheaded in Rome, John was thrown into boiling oil (but was spared), many were burned and crucified and also fed to wild beasts. Now that aspect of it, isn't quite as appealing is it? We get scared as soon as we read these parts; our hearts sink. But what we don't understand today is this: serving God in his power will have dire consequences for us as we seek and live godly lives in an ungodly world. Now, it is not always doom and gloom. It wasn't always for the apostles but they were ready for it when it came because they prayed fervently and sought God deeply so that they understood, "it has been granted to them not only to believe in Jesus but also to suffer for his sake." Phil 1: 29.  There was no ignoring this aspect of their call.

Now hardships aren't always in the form of outward persecution. In phil 2, Paul describes how distraught he was at the illness of a friend, Epaphroditus, who was finally healed, he writes, sparing him "sorrow upon sorrow" (Phil 2:27). Often times, we experience depression, anxiety, fear, sleepless nights, hunger, etc as we seek God, pray to God both for ourselves and others. Christianity is no joke my friends. It requires sacrifice and while miracles have happened and do happen, they might not always. Sleepless nights will make you tired, you will feel famished as you fast and pray, the loss of a loved one will cause heart ache, the whip of the lash will hurt, and we will suffer great emotional, physical and mental stress and pressures. In our desire to seek God and His kingdom first, we sacrifice many relationships, dreams and any comfort from this world. It has never been true that those who serve God suffer less or have more wealth. That is devlish teaching. Those who serve God, however, experience joy that passes understanding. They have never been let down by Him. He has always supplied all their needs. Though they suffer their reward is great. They will cry out to God and he will plant their feet on solid ground. Even Acts is filled with loss, fear, death, and persecution. The stereotype of a group of people who did miracles out of bravery is not always true. What is true is how much they had faith in God's love to get them through. Let us do the same.